it was never a worthiness issue.

The reason you keep spinning your wheels on your goals, your dream life, and everything you have ever wanted or desired to have is…

You don't see yourself as the person, as the woman, who can actually be capable of having all of these things.

When you make a resolution, you declare it boldly and get SO excited in the planning process.
You print out the things, map out the perfect plan, see yourself carrying out said plan…

And years later, you are still trying to hype yourself up for that perfect plan to no avail.
And it sucks… it really does. It's exhausting, and it really just chips away at your self-esteem. You start to buy into the idea more and more how you're not enough, you'll never be like her, that life is meant for other people, and not you.

When you see yourself as not capable, you look to these past events to justify that -- of course you can't have what you want because you've had the same goals for years, and according to the experts, if you wanted it badly enough, you'd have it.

Babe… there's nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with your goals, your dreams, whatever it is.

Simply… can you view yourself as the woman who has these things?
Who behaves in this way… who acts in this way…
Who has the thoughts, the beliefs, the tenacity to believe in ehrself no matter what?

It's deciding to see yourself differently.
To see yourself as CAPABLE…
Because I think, maybe it's not actually a worthiness issue. And that's why you can't quite figure out why you don't have the things you want.
It's that you don't beleive in yourself.
You see the things you want, but BEING the woman to carry it out?

Lol, you feel like you simply could never.
Of course, once you have the clothes maybe, or the following, the time, the money, etc.
THEN maybe you could,
but you as you are now? Nope, not a chance.

I get it. And I'm here to tell you that's all a motherf*cking lie, it always has been.
Seeing yourself differently takes courage, and no one really talks about that.
Being willing to believe a differnt truth about who you are, actually believing the truth of WHO you are is… scary. It is, and it's okay.

But you're worth the leap and leaning into those fears. You are worth seeing what's on the other side.
You'll catch glimpses, and probably run away, but each time you'll stay a little onger, let yourself be immersed in the vision of your highest truth a little more…
And then you'll give yourself permission, things like…

"Oh, if I WAS like that… I wonder what that woudl feel like? What if I thought about it this way… or tried this? What if I just…pretended for a bit?"

That permission will turn into being aligned with who you truly are, and the flame will continue to grow. It may dim here and there, but it will never go out.
Becuase you can't get rid of the flame of your soul - your soul is your essence, your heart, the very thing that keeps you go.

Release control, surrender to trust, and give yourself permission to see yourself in a different, TRUE light.

xoxo, love,

Blake.