it’s not materials I want, it’s feelings that I crave.

….I wrote to myself not too long ago as I was doing deep digging into what I truly wanted and the life I was creating.

For most of my life, I have spent time chasing after all of the things outside of myself that I thought would bring me the happiness, security, and comfort I was seeking. I sought the things I thought I was supposed to, found joy in things outside of myself, security in things that could be taken away, comfort from anyone and everything, and avoiding it because deep down I didn’t think I could handle it or honestly…do any of this for myself.

In the process of this last year (few years really) where I’ve been dedicated myself to loving all parts of me, learning to build self-trust and become more resilient…all of this was starting to drop away. Slowly but surely, I was learning to feel more at home with myself, learn how to meet my own needs and when I couldn’t do that, finding ways to make sure I was supported.

And then suddenly one day…

…it all fell away, and what I truly wanted revealed itself.. that it was not things I wanted, but feelings.

Writing out these feelings that I wanted to feel…

Taken care of, supported.

Magical, confident, intentional, impactful.

Captivating, fierce, strong. At home, at peace. Connected, divine, intuitive…

The words kept coming, and kept coming.

When I looked at these words that had poured from my pen, I recognized that in order to feel these feelings it meant a lot of things had to go.

Including rules of the world — the way we are “supposed” to do things, the way we are “supposed” to live.

It also meant deep self-evaluation.

What values was I holding that maybe I wasn’t even aware of?

What standards was I holding myself to? Expectations? Were they truly my standards, or someone else’s I un-intentionally decided were the “bar” along the way?

Was I willing to shed all that I knew myself to be, in order to achieve these feelings and most importantly…

be free.

From my own limitations I had set.

From my own rules, my own viewpoint.

My own beliefs I held about myself — could I trust myself to see me for all that I truly am and more?

To see myself in the way I had always felt, but pushed that feeling down for so long because it was “crazy”? Because I wasn’t enough, pretty enough, that was for other people…

Was I willing to give myself the chance, the attention, and give my soul the air it needed to thrive?

My answer…yes.

What about you? How would it feel to finally say yes to the woman within and surrender to that, and no longer seek outside of yourself what’s been within all along?

Tell me what you think!

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